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These songs lyrics are to my ex boyfriend alex, he is always in my heart somewhere and i still love him..................=[



Bury all your secrets in my skin

Come away with innocence

And leave me with my sins

The air around me still feels like a cage

And love is just a camouflage

For what resembles rage again



So if you love me let me go

And run away before I know

My heart is just too dark to care

I cant destroy what isn't there

Deliver me into my fate

If I'm alone I cannot hate

I don't deserve to have you

My smile was taken long ago

If I can change I hope I never know



I still press your letters to my lips

And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss

I couldn't face a life without your light

But all of that was ripped apart...

When you refused to fight



So save your breath I will not hear

I think I made it very clear

You couldn't hate enough to love

Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren't my friend

Then I could hurt you in the end

I never claimed to be a Saint

My own was banished long ago

It took the death of hope to let you go



So break yourself against my stones

And spit your pity in my soul

You never needed any help

You sold me out to save yourself

And I wont listen to your shame

You ran away you're all the same

Angels lie to keep control

My love was punished long ago

If you still care, don't ever let me know



If you still care, don't ever let me know...

well i was thinking of something to write in my journal and i was listening to this song hehe!

SLIPKNOT RULE! These song lyrics are amazing =] they speak to me in so many different ways haha!



Do you Believe? Do you Fade like a Dream?

Let me hear you BREATHE

Let me watch as you sleep

The Sparrow's Eyes… Promises shift into judgments

I cannot deny that you were designed for my punishments



The Blood and The Body - Control the cut so it's seamless

Show me your Heart - Show me the way to complete this

TETHERED / to a scene I / TREASURE / can you help me?

I / SEVER/ god it's perfect, it's / NEVER / really perfect

Now… I can finally be myself

Cuz I don't want to be myself



FREE MY SEVERED HEART, GIVE ME YOU - I WANT IT

(I don't want to be myself)



I cannot maintain a semblance of Normal anymore

I'd rather feel pain than try to fit in with you anymore

I'll throw it all away, like everybody else

I can finally be myself

Cuz I don't want to be myself



FREE MY SEVERED HEART, GIVE ME YOU - I WANT IT

(I don't want to be myself)

I hate ignorant people, there is a few on this site i shall not say names because that is unfair.

it really annoys me sick of people judging you before you have even talked to them........me personally i talk to anyone who shows me respect on this site, because there is alot of great people i have met here......i mean if you have a problem god speak up! tell me what you dont like about me.

well i probably wont listen if you start saying things you dont like, because frankely i dont give a damn, take me as i am i dont change for anyone!!!

i am proud of who i am! and nobody is going to take that away from me and make me feel bad about myself i have learnt from them mistakes all to often =[

grrr!!!! fuck her im totally going to kill her i swear!!!! the little immature fuckin wannabe me bitch!

seriously she fucking copys how i dress my look everything! fuck she totally wants to be me!!!!!!!

you know how scary that is??? O_o

So Steph you can fuckin kiss my ass bitch!

come near me and i will get you i swear *evil grins*



weeeeeeee right i needed to get that of my system =] and i do apologise for the swearing haha!



oooo hope everyone has a good new year *giggles*

i will *steals harleys axe* hehe!!!!!

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EmeraldPhoenix
16:54 Dec 29 2008

just becareful with the axe dear, it is very sharp. ;)

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MorbidAngels15
18:37 Dec 29 2008

yes i know *grins* =]

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DeathsEmbrace
15:42 Jan 05 2009

of course my axe is sharp! why would i have a dull axe?! thats BLASPHOMY

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I would like to apologise to Tammie aka EmeraldPheonix =[ i was being such a moron towards you last night, when all you do is try to help me and assure me things will be ok. your an amazing woman always offering your time to people, wish there was more people like you hun =[

i read you journal piece about your feelings, it was beautiful hun, i can connect with you on the things you said your words spoke to me alot on how to be strong and making life better by making the right choices.

Thats what i need to do i have realised this now after some long hard thinking and reading your journal entry........you truely are a great person hun =]

jeez.....i had the hardest talk the other day what i totally regret big time =[ i kinda told this person about how i have been feeling lately and certain secrects if you get me......and i have a feeling she going telling everyone what a lame little gurl for thinking how i do. i cannot really say the things we talked about because its kinda private.....but god damn i swear i feel like im never going to trust anyone properley again =[

you know even the greatest people you know might secrectly think fuck i wish she would just shut up *cries*

may i add im a fucking very paranoid person, i cannot help it i just been messed about alot so im kinda suspicious of everyone i talk to these days, people shouldnt take it so personally but there do annoys the hell out of me =[

bet my little so-called friend having a good old laugh at me now, but why should i care i know how i feel and nothing is going to change my mind.

im allowed to say and do what i wish, i hate people who dictate to me how i should live my life, maybe they do it because they dont have one......pfft! who knows.........

hmm.....i was stood in the part the other day, and i wondered why a frisbee gets bigger the closer it gets then it hit me..............

hmm....there something in life you just will never understand!

how my ex keeps bugging me, he just wont leave me alone =[ i have told him millions of times i will never get back with him.

i just wanna be alone right now =[ oooo, didnt that sound emo *hides* im not i swear!!!!

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StoneCrow
14:20 Dec 24 2008

Give him a book...lol. May I suggest http://www.doubleyourdating.com/links/books.html

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Well i havent wrote in my journal for a long time, lol! so i think im going to do it more often hehe!

well anyway........

i woke up this morning and realised that life is such a bitch!!!

who ever is up there sure doesnt like me!! lol! because everything always has to have some fucking tricky situation involved with it, there is always a catch!

hmm.....why carnt my life be simple lol!

well one day i might figure it out lol! probably when its to late xD haha! im good at that rofl!

oooo plus why do all the fucking cool people have to live so far away! and im refering to one particulary guy, and he is amazing, never met anyone like him =] right i will stop before this gets soppy haha!





bye for now x